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It takes times to come to terms,
After all we have to learn...
Your my heart, your my soul,
With you in my life, I am whole...
Don't tell me what I want to hear,
Just tell me what I fear...
When we cry we lose,
Just to forget we bruise...
This life we live some are ashamed,
The fingers they point, who is to blame?

October 26, 2011

" HATE "

Love me or hate me, it's all the same
Scattered thoughts cluster in my brain...
At the back door, I'm knocking, let me in
Swallow your pride, cut me down to size again...
The rabbits run, go grab a gun
Today my dear we have no fun...
Pinch yourself till you bleed to make sure you feel
Bring force fed the same dirty meal...
Call off your dogs, renew your hate
Gather your weapons & meet your fate...

October 18, 2011 @ 10:25pm

" The One That Dwells Within... "

It's a demon inside; it no longer does to hide.
Raging & screaming trying to find a way; there is no one listening, no one to confide
Swallowing the poison ; it's the only pain I feel...
The gaping wounds, they just won't seem to heal.
The compassion is gone,
it was never there all along.
Crale the monster we brought to life,
We have fallen in lust, I am it's tortured wife...
Creatures just lost in this despair,
I have turned to revenge, no longer can we compair.
October 18, 2011 @ 10:07pm

" My Last Laugh... "

A silent prayer unanswered; behind these walls I hide...
Painful speakings kept deep inside, I dare not say...
Of the torture I will send your way...
Numbing the brain for pleasure brings ignorance we reap...
Endurance we brace my convience has went to sleep...
Sanity is bland, that I know...
Deeply my tolerence mo longer grows...
We are all labeled, judged, self-assure...
The junkies addiction just feed & want more...
Call me what you want; do as your pitiful self defines...
At the moment when the tables turn the last laugh is mine...
 October 14, 2011 @ 1:46am

" A Lover Lost "

It's your love, it's your lust...
It's the feeling, the feeling you must.
It's your heart, it's your soul...
The reason you live, it gives you life,
Take this blade, use your sharpest knife...
Everything goes hazey your out of control,
You coe to digging a 6 foot hole...
Look at your hands, what have you done?
I simply smile & say, "I finally won..."

October 1,2011

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It's a sensation of which we don't see.. Could it be you.. Could it be me. A cluster of thoughts gather in my head. Laying in a daze almost a kiss from death; more maggots to be fed. Like the dark autumn sky; cool bliss in the breeze. Looming, watching me from up in the trees. Who are you...Who am i. When we figure it out; we all soon die.

"Love, Never Forgotten" - 9/27/2011

Your gone but not forgotten, when your away I feel so rotten
Absence makes the heart grow fonder, without you makes my heart wonder
When you left you took a piece of my heart with you, I want my heart back what do I do?
Alone & hopeless is how I spend my days, I miss you baby in so many ways
You make feel so pretty & secure, I sit & wait hoping you will walk back through the door
I will always be here for you for no matter what, not having you in my life is like a knife in my gut.

Collaboration of Love - Written by Amy & Jamie - 9/12/2011 - 1:20am

Ear to ear is my smile when I'm with you
Lay in the sweet numbness of bliss is what you & I do
Pleasure or pain, both are fine when we're together
I am yours as you are mine, I love you now & forever
Beat & broken, baby, I'll bleed & die for you
I will always be honest & loyal, there I will be honey till I turn blue
You smell like heaven, my angel with bruised wings
You give me hope, you're even with me in my dreams
Everything I ever wanted is in one beautiful package they call Amy
The thing I needed to keep me going & to show me love is you my Jamie

Sweet Surrender - 9/12/2011 - 1:37am

When your thoughts are twisted & you can't seem to go to bed
Take the dose, lay & relax, it will be an explosion in your head
Close your eyes & release your soul
Don't worry my dear, you will temporarily fill that hole
I have that love & hate for you, when I'm in total bliss
There's absolutely nothing I'd rather do
It's a ritual, it's a sin, open that box of Pandora & let me in
Noble acts & good deeds, I miss you so much it makes my heart bleed
Salvation is what I need, on this high is what I feed
She hurts, she hurts too much, for her heart she will not let you touch
Wings like an angel, skin soft like a dove
She's irresistable, she's not hard to love
Scarred & broken is how she has become
When she calls you it's not difficult to come

For you, my son (Untitled) Written for my son Nicholas Caleb - 9/11/2011

A broken heart, broken heart...
When it bleeds, when it stops
Watch the clock as time ticks away
As life seems to crumble you're so fray
Lean closer to me dear, the sweet scent of your innocence brings me back
Loyalty & dignity & honor is what we all lack
The sounds of silence screams in my ear
This world of torture, I have no fear
Where did you go my love? They took you away
They took you out of here, now my days are grey
You my child, you make my heart beat
Without you I have so many demons to defeat
Through the night & all through the day
I think of you, I'm never going away
You're my flesh, You're my blood
You're the reason my life is made of
We are all here for a greater reason than we all really know
Sitting here in this storm I will wait for you
My son, I will never let you go
I love you Nicholas more than you will ever know

Untitled - 8/28/2011

I love you so much I don't understand
I feel so secure when you hold my hand
There is times you hurt me & I ask you why?
It gets us no where honey, I don't want to cry
I close my eyes & tears flow free
I have so much love for you, don't be angry at me
We will always have our good days & bad
When I think of life without you, it makes me sad
Your my best friend, no one could EVER take your place
When I'm down all I have to do is see your face
You're the one I want for the rest of my life
I can't wait till the day I become your loving wife
I care so much about you Jamie, I really do
The only thing that makes me happy is you
Your touch, your feel, I love you so much
I'm with you baby, I'll never get enough

Lustrous Obsession

Deep inside is where the nightmare grows
Twisting, turning, screaming but it never really shows
The obsession is the only thing you're seeing
It takes ahold of you before you know it, consumes your every being
How do you smile? What do I do?
You can't stop now, you're on a kamikaze mission, you won't stop till you're blue
Lingering thoughts it's utter despair
Completely  damaged, you want to repair
I've made this my home,
why can't I just leave?
Destruction in my path, what is done is done
I can not believe
I will break your spell, my love
I will end this curse
Before I lose my all
& end this story in a hearse

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Yesterday no flowers snowing, yet there is no obsession. You're convinced you were worthless to some.